The Truth Behind Blogging

First of all, HI! I'm back! It's been a bit since I've written or posted and I'm sure you're all wondering why. Did I give up on the blog? Am I completely done with writing? So many of you have reached out and asked why I haven't blogged in a while and I can't tell you how much I appreciate your concern and most of all, your support! It makes me happy to know that so many of you actually read and like my blog! I like it too, so much. But to be honest, me and it needed a bit of a break, and here's why. 

When Justin and I got engaged, and actually, it was a bit before that, I decided I wanted to start a blog to write about our wedding planning and relationship and lives as newlyweds! So when the time finally came to publish my first post, I was ecstatic! I had so many ideas and blogs in my queue just waiting to be posted. I started following all these bloggers and Influencers on Instagram and learning from each of them. I'd have days of pure inspiration and then days where I was left empty. And on those day's where I felt I had nothing to write, I'd be scrolling through my Instagram feed and see all these people I followed posting every day or week with new content. And I got stressed. Really stressed, because I so badly wanted to make this blog something big. I felt like I was doing something wrong - like I wasn't making a difference. I had forgotten my goal with the blog and focused more on what everyone else around me was doing instead of just focusing on me and the whole reason I started this blog in the first place. I lost the fun out of it. 

My main goal with this blog was to help at least one person I didn't know with wedding planning. Justin had asked me "what, in your mind, would be the one thing that would make you think this blog was a success" and my answer was exactly that - for one person to feel helped or inspired by it. And boy, did I hit that goal fast. I shared on Instagram and Facebook and within the first two months, I had someone completely random, who I didn't know at all, reach out to tell me how much she loved my blog and how much it helped her. That carried me along for so long. But then I stopped focusing on that goal, and that moment, and the vicious cycle of being "good enough" set in. Moral of the story, I needed a break.

I needed a break from comparing myself to other bloggers out there. I needed a break from social media and I needed to start focusing more on my relationship. These past 8 months since we have gotten engaged has FLOWN by. And I feel like I've missed every second. Since we only have 4 months left until the big day (HOLY CRAP, RIGHT?!), I wanted to slow down and live in the moment because I know these next few months are going to go even quicker and I don't want to remember it because of a blog post I wrote about it. I want to remember what I felt in that very moment. I want to remember what it smelt like, how the sun felt on my skin, the love I felt. Those are the memories I want. And since taking this last month or so to do just that, I've had fresh eyes and a fresh heart. 

I'm not saying I'm not going to write for this blog anymore - it is just the contrary. I'm just going to stop putting the pressure on myself to post once a week, or even once a month. I want to share so many things with you all, but honestly, right now my life is pretty boring but the fun stuff is just beginning. So no, I am not giving up or calling it quits. And no, I am not going to have a weekly schedule or planned content. But I am going to live my life and reflect afterwards. And I will share everything I can and want to share with you all. But I also want to focus on my life - my beautiful, amazing life that I am so blessed to me living. I didn't want you to think I was leaving you high and dry. I just don't want the pressure of writing just to write so I can put something up. That isn't fair to you, and that is not at ALL what I started this blog for.

So, all in all, I hope you can forgive my absence and you understand my reasoning. I am so excited to write again - when the moment is right and I actually have something good and amazing to share with you. We are trying "vlogging" which has been an experience too so stay tuned for videos! If there is anything you all want advice on, or have questions about, please reach out. I would love to help and maybe even write a blog about it! Anyway, I hope life has been treating you kindly - it has been for me. And I can't wait to talk again soon.

Love always, xoxo